alone in light, comforted in darkness

[greywolf]

i very much doubt i'm gonna be the only one that feels this way, or at least i hope i'm not the only one.

*lights ciggy*

i know for years i have felt more alone when i am in daylight, whether i am actually alone or not, i seem to be more relaxed at the twilight hours of the day. one thing that does annoy me about being a 'night owl' is when you watch tv you have to have the volume really low compared to when you watch it during the day. not wanting to sleep at night has been playing havoc with my job recently. i am waking up late and just being a complete bumhole til at least the afternoon. half the time i wanna cry and the rest of the time i am run off my feet. them i get my boss telling me that i'm not fast enough and that i need to consider if i am right for the job. is she trying to tell me that i'm not cut out to work as a manager in a busy retail outlet. after work i come home have dinner and then i spend most of the night in the spare room (thank the goddess for wireless internet) on the computer away from my partner. and i've started to go to bod when he gets up for work having a couple of hours sleep then going to work. this is my first proper job for a couple of years, i had a mild nervous breakdown about 4 years ago, and i'm only 22. most of you will probably be thinking that i'm just being a drama queen, but surprisingly i'm not. i've seen more than most people my age and i've experienced things that few people should. for the most part i'm a part time wiccan only because i throw myself into it. i speed learn. and i have empathic abilities, which doesn't help any matters.

either way i'm getting further away from my point as usual, tiggy will tell you i have a habit of rambling on a bit (as you can tell). i just started this thread to see if other people have the same problem of being a night owl and seem to be by others at times to be anti social.

hope to get some replies.

blessed be

peter

[Fallen]

Don't worry Peter, you're not alone. I'm exactly the same way, right down to the tv thing (and weirdly even the retail management thing as that's my job too. lol). I hate going to sleep at night. It's like a fight with myself, I know what time I need to go to bed, but that's rarely the time I actually do. I love it late at night, when the world seems to be sound asleep and I feel like I'm the only one awake. And I know there are times when I am antisocial, so yeah people sometimes think that. lol. I've gone a week before without seeing anyone, or talking to anyone, and it didn't bother me one bit. Over the years though, I've learned tricks to get myself back into semi-normal sleeping patterns (I'm probably never gonna be a head to bed at 10 o'clock person, but I also know that if my normal bedtime has become 5 or 6 in the morning it's time to do something about it. lol). Anyway, from one night owl to another here are a few tricks I've learned over the years, try them or not, but I figured it couldn't hurt to share some of the things that have worked for me.

Ok, first thing I do is if my bed time has progressively gotten later and later till the sun is almost up by the time i head off to sleep i know I'll never get to a normal bed time easily....so I reset my body. I pick a night when I know I have off the next day and stay up all night. That day I'm a complete grump and all I want to do is take a nap, but I see it through, and then am ready for bed by like 9 o'clock. Then the next day I get up at a normal time, and I'm able to get myself to bed at a somewhat normal time again. Another trick is to cut back on the amount of TV you watch, and also to pick a time where it's turned off everynight, I think the TV zombifies people if it's on too late. I figured this out when I caught myself watching an infomercial one night at like 3 in the morning cause there was nothing else on, but I just couldn't get myself to turn the d**n tv off. lol. I usually turn the TV off by like 10 or 11, which is when the shows I like are usually off.......except when I want to watch a movie before bed, and I'll only allow myself to turn one on untill 11, that way I know the latest the TV will be on will be till 1. And lastly, I use meditation to help. This helps with other stuff too......I'm an easily stressed person and I have problems with depression too, and meditation helps with both of these things. I try to do at least one meditation excercise a day, and usually do it some time in the evening (some people say it's best to meditate early in the day, but it helps me at night to kind of clear my head.....otherwise I have problems shutting my brain down for the night and falling asleep. lol). A simple meditation once a day helps keep me relaxed, and keeps me from falling into depressive slumps.

Anyway, those are some of the things I use to help me from staying up all night, and sleeping all day. In the end, I really think it's about setting some rules for yourself, and getting into a routine. And actually, when you can get yourself into a pattern with falling asleep everynight by a certain time you're actually healthier and have more energy. Soooo, anyway, I guess I really wanted to say that you're definately not alone, and to share a few of the tricks I've used over the years to help me out. Hope I didn't bore you. lol. Talk to you later. Blessed Be.

~Fallen~

[estatigua (Tiggy)]

Everything Fallen says I am in total agreement with my dear friend. As you well know,I am an insomniac & these are also things I do to keep me on a better level so I can cope. I know you may have difficulty getting yourself prepared for meditation so I have put something on preparing yourself for meditation in the Melting Pot. didn't knoww you were having some problems at work.....call me!
BB
Tiggy x

[*Gypsy*]

same here, right now I think its stress but who knows~
It causes me lots of probs not sleeping at nite but its just the way I am and I can't do anything to stop it : (
Thanks for this post..I reallllllly like it~

[dragonsteve]

Thankyou graywolf.

how very strange that so many people can relate to the same things. I to do this but i come and go. I do this for about a week and then i go back to normal for two weeks. I have wondered if it as anything to do with the moon phases.

[ladyjay]

Wow, i am also a night owl and I have been able to find employment that will suit my hours. Everyone around me has got used to that fact about my life and we all work together. I dont bother them at night when they are sleeping and they dont bother my slumber until the afternoon. We have that agreement so for now its all good.
i guess maybe it plays a part the fact that I live in the desert sand I am used to working and what not at night after the sun has gone done beccause by then it has cooled off. lord knows I cant handle the heat.